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I HATE THAT I LOVE YOU.

I HATE HOW EASY IT SEEMS TO YOU
IT'S LIKE I AM INSIGNIFICANT

CAN I HAVE A LITTLE MORE?
AM I ASKING TOO MUCH?
JUST A FEW WORDS SOMETIMES
YOU DID NOT KNOW HOW IMPORTANT IS IT TO ME
I NEED THOSE GOOD NIGHTS, NEED THOSE MORNING WARMTH,
NEED YOU TO TELL ME THAT YOU LOVE ME TOO WHEN I SAID I LOVE YOU

I NEED YOUR VOICE
I NEED YOU TO PICK UP THE DAMN PHONE
I NEED YOU TO BE WITH ME WHEN I LOOK INTO THE FULL MOON I REALIZE
MAYBE YOU NEVER LOVED ME
OR MAYBE JUST A LITTLE?

IF YOUR LOVE IS JUST A LIE
SOMETIMES I HOPE IT LAST FOREVER
HOW FOOLISH CAN I BE 'IKE TEARING ME APART

DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I MISSED YOU
MAYBE IT DOESN'T MATTER AT ALL
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JUST TELL ME YOU DON'T CARE AND KISS ME GOODBYE.

腐蚀我

当我卸下所有的防卫和伪装，我没有勇气跨过那一道围墙：我为自己设下的安全范围。

原来长久以来戴着的面具，已经腐蚀我；
它破坏了最原本的组织，为我重新地粉刷上化学杂质。

完美的假象，背后隐藏的是血淋淋；
奢求完美的姿态？代价是：走上麻木不仁的轨道，无视所有曾经坚持的"单蠢"。

戴上面具，我昂首阔步，不再害怕所谓的人言，冷眼；因为我知道，那个坦荡荡在人前的，不是我。

我曾自命清高，因为当时我真的认为我是清高的，换来的，是不堪回首的被孤立。

既然不能再自欺欺人地继续高举"自我肯定能过滤所有负能量"的盾牌，我最终选择了随波逐流，快活地当一个平凡的人（我原本就是）

原来人都不愿看见最真实的事物，甚至欺骗自己说：这就是事实，别钻牛角尖，别过度分析，别想太多。

我希望编织谎言的人能专业点，别让我看出破绽；因为我一点都不欣赏血淋淋的真实。